What am I even doing? I don’t know what I’m supposed to feel anymore. I overthink everything that’s thrown my way and turn it into something negative and I easily convince myself of something that’s not true. Or maybe it is, but I wouldn’t know :/ I can’t shake my feelings, my faith is so weak, I have no motivation for anything, and I don’t care yet at the same time I do. I have summer school for the 2nd time this year, and if I fail anymore classes, I’ll be repeating my grade. I constantly feel like everyone hates me, my own sister wishes I was dead, and God knows that guy I have my eye on would never even take me into consideration. I don’t even know how I’m still here, I’ve felt so much heartache. Those things are just the tip of the iceberg, I can’t get rid of the lingering feeling my ex boyfriend left behind and one of my ”best friends” had no problem with holding hands with him and kissing him right in front of me on Friday night. I drive my friends’ broken asses around town, and what do they do? Nothing of course. I sacrifice my time, my happiness, pretty much everything that means something to me for them, and everyone else, and in return, I’m lucky if I even get a ”thank you”. I’m not appreciated, wanted, loved, or cared for, and I’ll always be alone.